Love

Today was quite interesting. I couldn't quit listening to the song "What Do I Know of Holy" by Addison Road. It complately broke me. laying on my floor in complete tears type broken. heres the lyrics to help explain the rest.
I made You promises a thousand times
I tried to hear from Heaven
But I talked the whole time
I think I made You too small
I never feared You at all No
If You touched my face would I know You?
Looked into my eyes could I behold You?
(CHORUS)
What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?
Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?
I guess I thought that I had figured You out
I knew all the stories and I learned to talk about
How You were might to save
Those were only empty words on a page
Then I caught a glimpse of who You might be
The slightest hint of You brought me down to my knees
(CHORUS)
What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?
Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?
(CHORUS 2)
What do I know of Holy?
What do I know of wounds that will heal my shame?
And a God who gave life it's name?
What do I know of Holy?
Of the One who the angels praise?
All creation knows Your name
On earth and heaven above
What do I know of this love?
(CHORUS)
What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?
Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?
What do I know of Holy?

It was this song and a few others that I contemplated the entire day.
I did my finances and what not realized how much debt i have and all my troubles with family and whatnot. life so often gets in the way of what is the most beautiful, sacred and meaningful relationship that exists. What will it take for Christians to realize that if nothing else we should share because of the fulfilling love we experience each and everyday.
anywho. after spending the day thinking about all these things I come across a phrase in a book I am reading. Its a simple phrase that struck me like a sword in the heart. tok the breath out of me and while listening to Blessed Be Your Name almost broke again. the simple line is "In love He created such a being [Christ] in His own image, not a robot programmed to respond asd the Maker designed. In creating such a being freely to love and be loved, God risked the possiblility of such a being rejecting His love in favor of independence or even self-love". Man I wish I could put this in flashing lights or tattoo it on my heart and remember how each moment Jesus could have chosen to reject the father and live for himself. So often people especially Christians, myself included, think of Jesus as God who although willingly knew he had a mission to help, die on the cross, and raise from the dead. However does anyone ever realize that He was a man. dealt with all the internal battles of men. lust, greed, self love, self righteousness, self glorification ( i mean he was God after all) he could have boasted about being God, being able to heal everything and fix everything with just a touch, who in their right mind could be humble when you have that kind of status?? out of everything Jesus dealt with he CHOSE to be humble he chose to die to his earthly desires each and every moment of his short time here on earth. When he was in the desert for 40 days, front of the crowd who were condeming him, to pilot, the pharisees, the soldiers beating Him, the crowd as he walked to his death, and finally on the cross. He could have chosen that a living and perfect sacrifice isn't worth all the pain and just given up and chosen to live for himself. but He didn't! for some reason Christ found a reason for each and everyone of us to be worth it. He found a reason to stay pure and blameless. He thinks we are all worth His tortureous death, pitiful humans, the very humans who condemned him to deathThe ones who sin without realizing it, who want to be popular and "beautiful" no matter what it takes. Those who put their earthly status and finances above the Christ who bore it all "became nothing, taking the very nature of a slave, being made in human likeness, and being found in appearance as a man, he humbled himself and became obedient to death-even death on a cross!"

So I ask this question. What do we know of Holy?
Jesus could have chosen the path of a man, he had the choice. Yet he still chose to "come into the world to save sinners"